ERASER YOU

明显的，进入一个怪圈

邪恶、肮脏、无奈、

就像嘴边长的疮，很痛很痒，只要你不去碰他是可以忽略的，

但你忍不住。

我被怎样对待，就怎样回报给对自己好的人。

goddamn

问过许多人什么是爱。

such a stupid question.

没有人告诉我真正的答案。

有人说爱是完全放弃自我，放弃一切的自杀行为；

有人说爱是感到充实和幸福的甜蜜口味；

有人说爱是依赖和给予并从中自我肯定的疲累；

当然也有人说爱只不过是生理的花蕾。

做作。

不管怎样，我不懂。

我的问题没有答案。

怪圈没有结束得反复出现。

累的反面是过度兴奋，导致我一直认为这或那就是所谓的爱。

也许我还没有到达理解得了的年龄。

那些懂的人又懂什么？

你以为我喜欢思考这种垃圾吗？

怪圈里面没有人活得下去

下班的地铁上我嗅到了你的气味

那么浓烈的你的气味

我只好停下手中阅读的书

四处张望

那一瞬间我天真的以为你会时空交错出现在我的世界

未果

脑子里出现了以前人们说的关于总会有那么一个气味是你永远也不会忘记永远也无法抗拒的荒谬言论

也许人们是对的

雨像雾也想雪一样扑在我的脸上

手里只有那把破了个洞还因此被嘲笑的伞

眼镜上满是星点

什么也看不见

公车上这些星点在外面的霓虹里显得那么那么凄美

每次 绝望的时候总会这么不自然得矫情起来

有天分

等着pinguin回来帮我压抑这些不应该出现的情感和被当成傻瓜被当成笨蛋毫无存在感的生活

I am so tired of being here.

But where the fuck can I go?!

我的精灵还是不断得变化着，我已经成年了，但他还在变着形态

唯一不同的是他不会再变成小时候可以随意变成的猛兽，现在他只能在仓鼠、鼹鼠、小虫子、飞蛾之间变化

他再也没有信心承受自己尚未定型的这个事实

有个旧友说我变得那么麻木，

In a bad way.

下雨下的很大的时候那些以往的故事总会悄然而至

Somehow

有个人泪流满面

人总是往前走

失去控制和信仰

活该我前辈子投错胎转世成人

终于还是忍不住听了一遍又一遍。

The city called me so I came
It isn't mine to question what it said
I sleep until the point when I'm awake
I walk until there's nothing left to trek
And everyone is looking for an answer
And everyone is waiting for a break
I came and I was bored of it soon after
But I had nowhere to go and so I stayed
I dreamed a lifetime of this place
It seemed an awful thing to waste
Well the morning fills my mouth up with decay
I like it, it reminds me how you taste
Sometimes I feel you rising up behind me like the wind
But I still try to look away
What will you look like when you're old?
(What will you look like when you're old?)
What will I do if I don't know you?
(What will I do if I don't know you?)
I guess that I decided not to ask the day I took the road
Down to the city as it called
Sun making silhouettes of gauze
I don't remember you at all
The city called me and I came
It isn't mine to question why
Sometimes the clouds will rise ahead, I hear your name
It's like a choir in the sky
What will you look like when you're old?
(What will you look like when you're old?)
What will I do if I don't know you?
(What will I do if I don't know you?)
I guess that I decided not to know the day I took the road
Down to the city as it called
Sun making silhouettes of gauze
I don't remember you at all
They pulled a human from my waist
It had your mouth, it had your face
I would have kept it if I'd stayed.

要坚强 要相信

If you Go

I am Here

If you Go

I will be here

If you Go

I will be here waiting for you.

I will wait until the next sunrise.

晒照片。

持续宅。

丧失理智。

烦躁。

晒晒晒晒。

Anouar

然后晒在听的专辑

Maybeshewill — Sing the Word Hope in Four-Part Harmony (2009)

风格：post-rock

想要专辑的告诉我，传给你。

还看了一部电影，今晚。

Narco

主演：Guillaume Canet

情欲写真的时候不小心喜欢上了演边缘摄影师的他。永远一付邋遢样。。。

可惜对他两小无猜里一点都不感冒。

我不评论电影，自己去看，每个人感受都不一样。

他的气质很像Ryan Gosling。我喜欢Half Nelson。

蚊子。

空调。

灰尘。

电脑。

太阳。

这就是上海的夏天吧。